can i change my life?.

i dont know, can ichange my life. day by day, i try to better of yesterday. i dont understand why i do life in the this world? sometime, i felt my God always in my heart, always keep me of bad situation. and sometime i can cry, what the hell of boy who is cry? hoho.. this is nalurity.. i can cry because if i saw my family, and if i will leave them :(..
i must be strong if i want to win in this city, like looking a job or etc..
if my God Listen my dream, Iwant to can make my family appreciate to me and i can be someone who good